Hi everyone, welcome back! Since it was Thanksgiving in U.S. last week, I examined ‘gratitude’ and why it is more important to really practice it during the tough times in our lives. This week, I would like to examine the thought process that a lot of us may have from time to time especially when we read literature or listen to lectures on how to live a better life or be more spiritual because we may end up judging ourselves way more than the next person around who gives a crap about learning anything in life!
This post of mine is going to especially touch those people who are highly sensitive in personalities. So, if you are not completely sure whether or not you are that person, keep an eye on how you feel after reading this post because it may just confirm what you may have known deep down in your heart for a long time!!
Folks, when I was going through tough times and during those times when this amazing Universe introduced me to the concept of viewing life and living through a ‘different lens’ or a ‘different perspective’; all the books and articles that I used to read on how to live a better life and all the lectures and seminars that I used to listen to would sometimes make me think so less of myself. At that time, I would sometimes feel so badly about the fact that I didn’t already know all this stuff and therefore how to live a more peaceful life!! And this judgement would surface especially when I would try to put into practice this new way of living but would fail miserably because apparently it’s not that easy to unlearn your old ways of living!! And this is the reason why I wanted to write this post today which is for each and every one of you who has in the past or may in the future feel any reason to judge yourself, to not love yourself, to feel guilty about what you did or didn’t do. This judgement, to me, is the only downside of trying to be more spiritual or learning to live a more conscious life. And on top of that, if you are a Highly Sensitive Person (like me), chances are you much better aligned to understanding all this spiritual stuff and therefore may end up judging your spiritual abilities much more than anyone else who is on similar path as you are but is not an HSP – which is why this post of mine is dedicated to all of you out there who have such beautiful hearts which can feel the pain and suffering of other people as well! I know very well that it’s not easy being a Highly Sensitive Person (HSP) but you are that hope which this world full of conflict and chaos needs to help bring yourself as well as the rest of humanity to the next level of consciousness.
So many of us who always strive to learn to live a better life, to try to face a situation in a better way next time, to deal with a challenging person in a more positive way next time, to live life focusing more on gratitude instead of being grumpy most of the time etc.; even though our intentions are very good, yet, we fail so many times in trying to put everything we have learned into practice. And part of the reason why we fail is because we don’t like where we are today. We don’t like how we react today. We don’t like the unhappiness that surrounds us today. We don’t like the lack of faith we have in the Universe today. And the reason we don’t like where we are today is because we never, not even in our wildest dreams expected to encounter situations that we have encountered in life so far. We never expected to be in personal or professional relationships with such challenging people. We never expected that life can throw surprises at us that we would barely know how to handle. We never expected life to take us into the darkest places of our hearts where lots of sadness and despair and loneliness resides. We never expected any of this and that’s why when we listen to all these lectures and seminars and read all these books, it gives us hope and in the name of hope we try but we end up trying so hard that we end up failing! And we try so hard because we are so desperate! So desperate to heal our sadness, our anxiety, our depression, ourselves and our life!! We are so desperate because we don’t like where we are. We don’t like to feel the sadness in our hearts all the time, we don’t like to think anxious thoughts all the time, we don’t like to live in fear all the time, we don’t like to deal with all that we are dealing with in our life anymore!! But folks, what I have come to understand is that there is a reason why you feel the way you feel, why you are where you are in your life today, why you are facing whatever you are facing in your life today. Whatever or whoever you are dealing with has messages for you, the lessons that you need to learn in this lifetime. It’s your job to figure out what it is that you need to learn and once you get the lesson, the Universe will graduate you to the next lesson and the next and the next…this is what life and living is all about!! But before you can even begin to understand all the messages and lessons this amazing Universe is sending along your way; you have to first learn to accept that this is who you are and how your life is no matter how different it is from what you had imagined growing up! There are always reasons why it is the way it is and I know this is the most challenging thing to do – to be able to allow yourself to accept your life the way it is today, no matter how broken it is today!
Personally for me, I had to accept the fact that I am a highly sensitive person who is affected greatly by negativity in any form, by sadness of my own heart or anybody else’s heart , by fear in my own mind or anybody else’s mind. And once I accepted that, I got my messages and one of those was to write it all down and that’s when I started to write this blog! And it doesn’t matter if 5 people read my blog or 50, I feel so alive writing it that I will keep writing until I don’t feel the aliveness anymore!
Lots of love and peace to everyone out there who needs it at this time! Until next time, live life 🙂
